S.A.D
Seasonal Affect Disorder.
Sucks.
This has been my hardest winter to date. It could have something to do with me not taking my usual medicine. But when I tried, it made me sick :-( But I also think it could have to do with no "break". Last year I was able to make it through the winter with no medicine, because my medication came in the form of a VACATION to a warm sunny beach.
That short 8 day break from this bitter cold made the winter of it bearable. It made everything BEFORE the trip easy because there was a treat in site. The break gives you a renewed sense. Then the second half is bearable because the end is in site.
Kev keeps telling me that the end is in site. But I don't see it. And I need a break. I don't want to leave the house. I hate taking the kids to their activities (which usually we all enjoy), I hate grocery shopping (another thing I enjoy), I hate ANYTHING that requires me to leave my warm bed.
Kevin says we should move. That is not an option. If I couldn't leave my family for River Falls (70 miles), how would I move thousands of mile?
Vacations help, but unfortunately its not realistic for a teacher to leave for a week every January. Heck its frowned upon even on rare occasions. We have a week off for Christmas; but who wants to leave your kids at Christmas?! Or take the kids and have them miss all the parties.
So instead, I sit here and fester. I'm an angry little elf. And my poor husband just has to deal with it. I have to wonder what others do to help?
I haven't blogged about it much. Partly because I'm a bad blogger, partly because every time I did I failed.
BUT I've been on track for just over 6 weeks now and have lost 19.5 lbs!!!! So I'm pumped. My first few weeks, I didn't do much for exercise, all diet....thanks to my surgery and such. But since April started I've been to the gym at LEAST 3 times a week.
I'm working on the couch to 5k program. Because I enjoy intervals. And as much as I HATE it and am horrible at it, I've always wanted to be a runner. I've finished the first two weeks and am contemplating the third. (Do I start now or take another day at week 2).
Anyways, just needed to give myself a little public pat on the back :-)
