To be a mom....

Is there more to life than being a mom? I'm not so sure. Its only been 7 months and I already can't imagine what life was like without her. Was there really a time when I could wake up when I felt like it, run to the store in 5 minutes, play outside all day without worrying about the tempature, go to dinner without thinking if there will be a place for her to sit, go to a movie, rent a movie, spend time with Kev without anyone around, take a shower at any moment I felt like it, put makeup on every day and even wear clothes that I liked in a size I was happy with. I don't know if those things were ever done, or if I'm just dreaming that up. But what I do know is I can't imagine waking up and not getting to hug and snuggle with that baby, laying down to sleep without wondering if she will be okay, going to work without wondering what fun she is having at daycare, not wanting to cry because that child on tv has a mother somewhere. As much as I miss feeling like a women, I just plain can't remember what it feels like NOT to be a mom and I dont think I want to....